Well that went quickly... In two days time I officially go back to work and have to be a proper grownup that doesn't wear pyjamas all day and talks about something other than jumperoos or the contents of my sons nappy.
I have mixed feelings about my return to work. As I'm only going back 2 days a week, I am still going to have plenty of time with my cheeky little pickle. But when I decided to go back I did naively think he would be sleeping better (obviously this was before I actually had the baby!)
On the one hand I can't wait to be back. I work in a jewellery shop and I LOVE my job. Helping people choose their engagement and wedding rings is one of the most amazing, exciting things and rewarding things to do. (Not to mention sitting in the window trying on all the enormous diamonds -- don't tell my boss!)
Sadly the thing I think I am looking forward to most is wearing proper grown up clothes that aren't covered in sick/wee/whatever Luke has had for lunch that day - I can't wait to put on a pencil skirt and heels! (I know that sounds so lame but it's the little things in life right?!)
I am also looking forward to getting part of myself back that has sort of felt like it's been missing while I've been on maternity leave. I put a lot into my job, and although I love spending time with my baby I have really missed feeling as useful and appreciated as I do at work.
However I am also nervous. Will I still be able to function at work if I've had a grand total of 3 hours sleep the night before? Will I still enjoy my job as much as I did before? And most importantly how will I cope with not seeing my little boy for 2 whole days? The hours I work mean I will often leave before he wakes and come back after bedtime. I have never been more than a few hours without Luke - how am I going to cope with working 2 consecutive days where I don't see him at all?
Putting my mixture of excitement and doubt aside, I am very blessed with the capacity in which I am able to go back to work. I am lucky enough to only be going back 2 days a week which means I am still able to have plenty of time with Luke. And not only that, thanks to my husband and my darling mother I am able to go to work knowing he is being looked after by people who truly care for him. And for that I am eternally grateful.
So now to get back to the very important tasks at hand - choosing an outfit, picking out a handbag and looking out my much needed travel coffee cup!
Roll on Friday... Let's do this.
Enjoy your first day back, as a fellow working mummy I know exactly where you're coming from! xXx
ReplyDeleteAh I can totalmy understand how you must be feeling. I've been apart from the girls on only a handful of ocassions. You will be just fine and it'll be grest for you and the baby. Good luck on your first day back and yes, outfits are a must. You will feel amazing. Even on 3 hours sleep. Xx
ReplyDeleteI didn't return to work, but I often found myself longing to just have that break. Even on 3 hours sleep you'll be able to enjoy some adult conversation and drink hot drinks! You'll be fine :) xx
ReplyDeleteI remember going back both times after I had my two...a mixture of sadness, excitement and nerves all rolled into one! But as long as you enjoy your job it makes it bearable. It's also nice to be around adults who can control their bodily functions! Lol
ReplyDeleteI didn't return back to work but understand how you feel I went back to study with my first child x
ReplyDeleteHope you are enjoying your first day back at work!
ReplyDeleteReturning after maternity leave is so tough - not only are you leaving your baby for the first time, but you are probably exhausted too! You do very quickly fall into a new routine though, I promise.
Hope your day is going well! I went back to studying full time when my daughter was 5 months old and it is heartbreaking leaving them for the first time, but it's great getting to see them at the end of the day!
ReplyDeleteOh I hope your first day back is lovely. It will feel so odd at first even jut walking somewhere by yourself and being alone. It'll take a bit of adjustment but I think sometimes you'll come to enjoy that little break where you can just be you again. x
ReplyDeleteGood luck on your first day back at work. I'm sure it will be fine :) try and enjoy it! xx
ReplyDeleteGood luck. I hope you first day back is lovely and that you can easily adjust. Hope you enjoy it x
ReplyDeleteThank you all - my first day back ended up being wonderful and I got snuggles when I got back 😊 Xxx
ReplyDeleteWas just about to wish you look then seen your comment, glad to hear it went well. I never went back, wages didn't meet child care cost unfortunately.
ReplyDeleteThank you! I am the same but we are extremely lucky have my mum close by who is able to be childcare the 2 days I am back xxx
DeleteI hope that you have a lovely time being back at work. Work was always my "time out" from parenting.
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